Hi There! For my previously dedicated followers, I deeply apologize for my disappearing act. And for my new visitors, WELCOME, and I hope you come back!
Over 20 years ago I went through a bout with depression. Me…a nurse! In fact, ironically, I was working on the psychiatric unit at a hospital at the time; doing a good job of taking care of everyone but myself! One weekend I overdosed on prescription and over the counter medications; luckily I awoke in an emergency room instead of on the side of the unknown!
That day, I had two options. One would be to lay there at the bottom of my dark hole I had been spiraling down for months and just disconnect from the world. I had seen many patients check out from reality and live quietly in their own private bubble. No worries, no stuff to deal with. Option 2, was that I would begin to confront the pain and disappointments in my life, and start peeling the layers off until I got to a place where I could see a glimmer of hope for myself. I happily chose the latter, and am a witness that we can change our lives!
This past March my two friends and I embarked on a 7 day cruise to the Caribbean to have some real ME time for ourselves. It was blissful!
The cool thing was that from the time our ship departed until it came back to the home port our cell phones were off and no one brought lap tops. No texts to read, no calls to return…no emails to check. I frankly didn’t know I could survive without checking messages!
Though we spent a lot of time together we also spent time in our own space. For me it was a perfect time for introspection. Was I following my own spiritual path? Was I waking up each day passionate about what I was doing with my life…where I was, and where I still wanted to go?
I was pretty happy with my answers. My life needs tweaking but I’m definitely on the right path. I have learned to love and trust God and myself. The passion I’m blessed to wake up to every morning is to do more…do better, and make a positive difference in the world!
I stood on the balcony of our room that last morning mesmerized by a beautiful sunrise over a vast blue ocean…in awe of God’s art…things that money can’t buy.
We all have one life and one chance to live it. Do it well and on purpose!
from the desk of Ameenah